i was offline for a while, with GCSEs and no internet but i'm back now, starting new
i want to change, i want to be skinny. i want to be the girl who everyone comments on their weight loss. i want to be able to be thrown around, to not be afraid to jump on people's backs without hurting them. i want to sit on peoples laps and wear tight little tops and tiny shorts, and have a gap between my legs. i want visible hip bones and a small bum and no sign whatsoever of a double chin. i want my ribcage to be showing ever so slightly, to complain that size 10s and 8s are too big, and to pull on a pair of my current jeans and them just fall down. i want to be different to who i am now. i want my mum to stop questioning me on 'do you really want that packet of crisps?' and i want people to see me in the streets and be jealous of my figure.